I thought of something that maybe we should heed while thinking up ways to portray the struggle of trusting Jesus during hard times...or whatever times for that matter...
Last night there were several mentions of the fact that, when it comes down to it, our problem is that we don't choose to trust in God's sovereign designs for our sufferings and trials. Therefore, we reasoned that we must simply...well,
choose. Indeed. However, I think there is something deeper than this. And I pull this from scripture, from Liz's testimony, and my own life: In conquering this distrust we have in God, there is something more than just the classic "make a decision" we hear from many who have a more formulaic way of going about things. But I find that one can "choose" arrogantly, or rather...try to make a decision by "will power" to trust God too hastily, without ever crumbling before God first in surrender before boasting in some great decision they made. I am not saying that making haste to trust Jesus is a bad thing, but it can be a bad thing when we gloss over pain just to will ourselves into a quick fix. I think it is clear in scripture that trials are sent to first make us crumble and stop for a while to weep and be broken. For instance, how long did Job - who was righteous in God's eyes (holy cow!) - mourn and lay prostrate before the Lord roused him back to trusting in God? Or how about in Mark 9:24 when the wavering man says, "I believe; help my unbelief!" The man was a believer, but there were still parts of his own heart that he could not merely "will" to believe. He had to ask for help first.
I also saw this in Liz's testimony when she said that she was in such despondency that she could not eat or get up off the couch. And it was in her complete brokenness that God
planted within her a desire for Himself. And when we exult after a time of conquering despondency or trials, what do we boast in? Our decision we made? Or Jesus supernaturally awakening us to his love and glory?
Or how about this example: I heard Matt Chandler talking about how we go about things in this life such as loving others, serving in the church, loving the Lord our God with all of our heart, etc. And he tested his audience by saying, "Ok. I command you to love the person in front of you just as Jesus loves them! Ok. Now I command you to love your wife as Christ loves the church! Now...serve with glad hearts!" He went on and on, but the gist was that you can not will yourself to do such things. It just doesn't happen. There is something that must happen before this, and that is being humbled at your own depravity and pleading with Jesus to heal your broken self so that you can be empowerd to love and trust Jesus. Too many people are burnt out and have hard hearts from hastily trying to move on in the flesh during a trial.
Indeed, there are decisions to be made...Jesus demands that...but he demands we come to him first.
Thoughts??